Monday, November 14, 2011

Just One of Those Nights

It all started when I melted a hat that I have been working on for a customer of mine. Then, slipping and slipping, and I can't pull myself out. I hate it when I get in these random funks I get in to. This time...without Clomid!

Just feeling really lost. I know I want to continue with treatments. I know I want a baby. But I am so beaten. I just don't know sometimes how to keep going. I try to be strong, but most days I feel I am being strong for everyone else. I wish I could just curl up in bed and sleep...all day long. To give in to this pressure, of being super woman.

I know I am not pregnant. I can tell 100% by my temps. I am sure that this cycle is annovulatory, again. I just can't ovulate on my own without meds. Yet, even though I know this, I am nauseaus every day for the last 5 days. My sense of smell is intense. I smelled the wine at church from 15 feet away and fast food restaurants have been killing me! But my temps, are so all over the place. I know what it means, but with the fact that my body is screwing with me, it is hard to believe my brain when it tells me ...I AM NOT PREGNANT!

Just want to start my treatments again that I can't do after ovulation. If I am not post-O then there is no reason to wait! But I SO don't want to ruin my chances...in case I did O. What to do? What to do? I guess all I can do tonight is go to bed. Tomorrow is another day, a better day!

1 comment:

  1. Most time it’s good to share problem. WHO KNOWS?? My names are Aylen Melsin I suffered Adhesion that damaged my uterus and this is really what I think you should understand. I finally was able to conceive a child of my own after 7 years without any issue. This really was the worst thing ever. It was a miracle that indeed shocked me and my husband. Because I was left with no option but to use a Herbal Health Concoction that was prepared from Roots Herbs to help the Immune. I got to find out a solution through online search and I talked to the direct source about my problem. His name is Ahiga and he told me how some necessary few herbs will be useful to women’s health, to cure Fibroid, tubes blockage recovery, So I gave him a chance to do what knows best. He sent the Herbs to me and gave simple instruction on method of use. After few weeks of usage I began to feel dizzy, vomiting, tender breast, a friend of mine told me all these are sings of pregnancy. I went for check up behold I was confirmed pregnant. I'm glad God did this with the Roots Herbs of Ahiga. You can get in-touch with Ahiga via Email (ahigahealing@ yahoo. com) really just felt like dropping this, not for all but for those who want to start having children of their own.

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